As many of you know, not only do I love doing research into conspiracy theories, and the paranormal, but I also enjoy looking into past lives. I see what I would consider evidence all of the time, especially from children. I have my own tough story that I struggled with for years and still wish I could find some way to validate what I believe. That I have lived before and this particulate life is one that I came to kicking and screaming the whole journey. I have been watching videos on Youtube which I am referring to as research. Yes, there is a lot of stupid stuff out there, but there is also a lot of things that lead to good research and ideas, so I don't have an issue with people using the resources they have at hand to assist them in finding an answer.
The video, "11 Signs you have reincarnated before" caught my eye so I watched it a few times. It was put up by Fridaykiss but I am not sure if they are the ones who have made the video, or are the ones who just posted it. Any who, I will give credit to Fridaykiss since that is where I saw this in the first place. I decided to go through this list myself and see what, if anything that I can relate to and have an experience that I can share. What I am willing to share, anyway. Come on, if you want really juicy details, I'm going to need more subscribers and some money rolling in! I know that none of this is proof of anything. I don't need proof because people are willing to die and kill for what they "know." I am looking for a good idea because ideas can be expanded and ideas can change. It's a lot easier to change an idea than something you think that you know. Thanks to my college logic teacher, that is something that I have been very cautious about. So here is the list and what I can relate to,or the lack of what I can relate to in some instances.
1. Recurring Dreams:
A recurring dream is just simply a dream that you have more than once that is exactly the same, or very close to the same as previous dreams. This is one that I actually can't really relate to. I have some vivid dreams once in awhile and some of those dreams have stayed with me for years. However, I don't really recall having the same dream more than once. It's possible that I have in the past and have talked about it with my friends, but as of right now in this moment in time, I can't remember having recurring dreams.
2. Out of place memories
Out of place memories is something you recall but have no reason to because you weren't even there. I have one strong example of this, and several other smaller ones. One took place when I was about 5 or 6. I was in my brother's room, with my Mom and I she was reading us a bedtime story, Star Wars. I was messing around and laughing. I stopped and told me Mom that I missed that song that she made up about Aaron that she used to sing. Aaron and Mom just looked at me, and Mom asked me what song. I then sang her the song that I remembered and she turned pale. She got mad and Aaron yelled at me that I wasn't even there! I was confused but Mom finished reading the story and we went to bed. A few years later and I asked my Mom about that incident. She told me that there was no way in the world that I could known that song. I told her I was there, sitting on the bed, listening to them sing. She then told me something that turned my blood cold. "Lisa, you couldn't have heard that song because you weren't even born yet. I didn't sing it again because I forgot about it until you brought it up that day. You couldn't have remembered it. You must have heard it from Aaron." I then went on to tell my Mom what she was wearing and what Aaron was wearing, and the subject was dropped forever.
3. Strong sense of intuition:
This is something that I can relate to very strongly. My sense of intuition has gotten me out of life threatening ordeals, helped me stay away from certain people, and even predict big events. Sometimes the events are good, and sometimes it's horrible. I wish I didn't have this sense sometimes. I knew almost down to the day a year in advance of when my Dad would pass away. I call that Hell. I also call it Hell when I can get feelings about people's health and it turns out I am right. There are times when this is handy and pushes me to listen to what my gut is telling me. It also tells me to not take for granted time that I have with my loved ones.
4. Deja Vu:
The sense of feeling that you have experience an event previously. This is something that I have had bits and pieces of feeling. One big event happened to me that actually changed my view on life. It is very personal, but I will give you a small bit of the story. I was at a concert in college and in the crowd, I saw a man. Every part of my being knew this man, even though I have never met him. I was actually shaking, and when we made eye contact it was like I was seeing a long lost soul that I knew very well. It was't a romantic thing, it was't a fearful thing, it was a recognition beyond anything that I have ever experienced before on that level. However, I would experience something very similar when I met my two best friends. Both at separate times, in separate places, when I met them the clearest thought in my head was, "there you are, I've been trying to find you!"
5. Empathy or Empath:
I was once told by someone that I trust that I walk into a room, and can absorb all of the emotions in that room. It was the first time that I have ever heard someone say that out loud and it was wonderful! I finally had words to describe what was going on in my life. Being an Empath is beyond taking clues and coming to a conclusion. It is actually being able to feel what another person is feeling such as anger, fear, happiness, or even illness. I can tell people how they are truly feeling even though they are fooling everyone else. I can sense illness and so many things. It's not just that. It is sometimes so bad, so overwhelming that I have no clue if what I am feeling are my feelings or someone else's feelings. I can walk into a room and literally not understand why I am so angry, or sad, or upset. It's extremely tough and exhausting. Sometimes, I will understand what is going on and let it, so other's don't need to feel so much pain. It is hard on me, and my health, but it has been proven to help others and that's what I do.
6. Precognition:
The ability to tell what is going to happen before the event happens. This is something outside of logical signs. For example, when I was in first grade, I predicted the earthquake during the world series the week before it happened. I told my Dad all about it and it happened exactly a week later. I knew the day I got into my life changing car accident that something terrible was going to happen that day, even though I wasn't clear on the accident. Another car accident years later, I got my cousin's dog out of the very back of the car and held her because I wanted to snuggle. I didn't want her being in the back of the car and I couldn't explain why. I actually begged my cousin to let me hold her. Good thing that I did because if she would have been there when the car smashed us in the back a few minutes later, she would have died.
7 Retro Cognition:
This is a term that I have never heard of before so I had to look it up to get more examples of the video. It is described as the ability to know things from a past event not through traditional means. For example, you have knowledge of an event that happened before you were even born, such as where a room was built in a library in a town you have never been to before, and it was built 10 years before you were born. You know about it, and can even describe the scratches in the floor boards. This is different than Deju Vu, but I am not well versed in this area so I can't tell you the exact reasons why. Since I am still looking into this because this is a new term to me, I don't feel comfortable giving an example from my life at this time. I'm sure that will change after more research because what I have done so far isn't really clicking with me.
8. Old Soul:
I have been called an old soul since I can remember. I never understood people my age and related to people older than me. It's not because I was around adults and was used to adult conversation. It was because I looked at what people were going through, and to the annoyance of my friends, I couldn't related to the childish things that they were going through. I didn't understand why they made such big deals out of such small things. I didn't have time for those small things because big things were coming. I was highly responsible and even have strong traits of an oldest child even though I am the youngest. I was very aware of what was going on around me, even if it was well beyond my years. I felt so very old growing up. Ironically now I feel younger than I ever have before. A friend of mine has a theory that this is because I have never lived past this age before, or it has been so long since I have made it adulthood. It makes me fearful because now I don't know what to expect. Maybe I am growing more immature. Maybe I am having a mid life crisis. Maybe she is right and I haven't been here in a long time.
9. Great affinity for culture and periods of time.
Oh do I love the 20's, the 60's and Egyptian time! I have such a fascination, love, and understanding of those time periods. I have done study and research and I can picture myself there, and I can feel it! Those aren't the only time but those are the ones that stick out the most to me. Now, this could be a nice hobby and there are many people who do research because they really do enjoy learning about a time period. It might be due to past life, or they just really like it. I can't tell you the reason for mine are, but I can tell you those certain points in time hold something very familiar to me. Something that I am willing to spend time researching and learning more about because it feels right.
10. Unexplained fears or phobias:
If you have ever had met me, you will know I have a massive fear of clowns. It is horrific and it has been around since I was a baby. My Mom told me I used to scream when there was a clown around. It is still pretty bad, but it isn't my worst fear. My worst fear is unlike many people, and it is ruining my life even though I have sought help for it on numerous occasions. I fear driving. I can almost tolerate being a passenger in a car but there are times that is almost too much. I hate this fear, and I don't really have a reason for it. Yes, I have been in terrible car accidents. I keep thinking that if I don't drive, then I can't hurt someone and I have had that thought since I was a small child. I don't know if I had hurt someone in a past life and am still paying for it in this one. I hate this fear but I can't get rid of it no matter how hard I try, or how much support that I get. It is blood curdling, flat out fear. Do I have some fear of heights, yes, but I rather hang off the side of the Empire State building than get behind the wheel of a car. I also have a massive fear of time. That one is hard to explain, but I have so much fear of time that it's mind bending.
11. Feeling as though Earth is not your home.
This is something that I said over and over again while growing up. I wanted to know where my real home was because there was no way that I belonged here. I didn't fit in anywhere and I didn't want to fit in anywhere because nothing felt right. My milestones were staggeringly behind, or way ahead of my peers. It wasn't just a small town girl wishing to live in the big city. I knew that I didn't belong anywhere. I didn't understand that the milestones in life such as a long term career, marriage, kids was what made up life. That couldn't be all that there was and what would define me. To this day, I still have issues understanding why I feel like I am on a different plane or wave length that almost everyone else. I am not trying to make myself seem better, or above anything. I truly felt and still feel lost because I can't believe that this is all that there is. That there isn't another world that I belong and I am here by mistake. Don't get me wrong, I have some wonderful loved ones, but I feel so empty and lost because of this that sometimes, I feel crazy. I am grateful and very much love and care for my loved ones. I always will be. I just don't know how to live. I am not in place here. I am behind what is considered normal and it is shameful and embarrassing. It's sad and frustrating. It's very lonely.
So, there was some connections that I have to this list. I don't know if this is evidence of a past life but I have something to relate to for most of these. I live each day knowing that many of these things are true in my life. I have no clue what to do with that information. That's why I keep looking. I keep researching and reaching out to find an answer. I do this blog for fun, but I also do it so people can not feel alone. Sometimes, we may come off as crazy. Maybe we are a bit, but not enough to make me realize that there is more out there that what we can explain. It's a sad, cold world, and trying to figure out our place is normal. I'm trying to find my place, including understanding the past, whatever that means.
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